2020 let’s bring it on!
A woman of FAITH
She firmly believes that by His grace, she will bloom again🌻
” God is within her, she will not fall.” -Psalm 46:5
I’m Joanne, wanted to be a Christian blogger if God’s willing. Pursue this passion and calligraphy workshop too. I decided to make a blog site again. To share how God changed my life. Share my stories how did I overcome the silent battles and just continuously fight and hold on to His promises.
(This might be the longest post I wrote, this year. Sharing my story how did i overcome the heartaches I’ve been through the whole year, even for the last days of 2019. Kahit na pasuko kana pero kailangan mo lumaban. Kung kinaya kong mag-isa. Kaya mo rin yun! Hindi ka nagiisa kasi kasama mo si Lord!🙌 Kung kaya mo pagtiyagaan basahin ito maiintindhan mo at baka makatulong rin sa pinagdadaanan mo.)
In every seasons, You are always good. There is nothing to hard for you. I will end the year strong in the Lord. You are worthy of all praise!🙌
I am not going to lie: 2019 was one of the hardest years of my life.A lot of realizations, life changing experiences, struggles and challenges I face alone. I realized that it is ok not to be ok and that, no matter why you feel down, you have the right to embrace it.We are all fighting our own battles and we need to appreciate what we are going through, because no matter how big or small our struggles may be, they are all tough. I get to explore myself from being so vulnerable, alone, felt unworthy and undeserving. But with God I am worthy, I am loved, I am deserving because I have Him☝️ who never leave me nor forsake me. I almost gave up everything but by the grace of God. He show me the right path to take. I took a rest in our church for 6mos to rest in every pain, every heartaches. My ministry and discipleship were affected😔. I dont wanna get involved with my small groups and experienced the burdens I have. (Sorry kung iniwan ko kayo at d nahandle ng maayos. But surely God gave you great leaders to look up into you and grow in faith)I got lost in track and had a little horrible experiences when we broke up, looking for someone to comfort me and move forward. I almost got tempted but God never allow me to happen this and God tap my heart and hear His voice saying “stay away from temptation, my child. Come back to me. I love you at your darkest” I tried to entertain some guys but I rejected them cos’ their not Godly😏 and they dont have pure intentions which is not good and will get you closer to flesh and sin.
Those times, I stopped communicating with them (kasi nonsense naman to reply their messsges and mga pokmarus😏) I always ask God to remind me to guard my heart and make myself pure. Preserving my purity until I meet the Godly man for me and get married in His timing🙏 and one thing I realize, i dont need a man or someone para makamove on. I need God and mold myself to be a woman of God! Hindi mo rin kailangan gumamit ng tao para maka-move on, mas lalo mo lang sinaktan sarili mo at yung mismong taong ginamit mo😔. Focus on God’s will. Wait for the person who will pursue you with God. Someone who respects your purity and will lead you closer to God. Someone who will worship in the Lord and grow in faith with you. Sarap siguro sa pakiramdam may ibigay ang Lord sa’yo na ganon Godly man and magkaroon ng Godly relationship☺🙏 I experienced His love, peace and joy. Through every struggles,testings and being tempted in every areas of my life. I just leave it all to God and cry it out.😭🙌 Thank you, Lord for the Season of Rest and Waiting. Even my career were really affected too. I had experiences working in an unbearable working enviroment and shifted to new careers which I explore new opportunities and wanting to have weekends off. It all failed.😔 many times, I am rejected. (At first time to mangyare sa akin na sobra akong nahirapan maghanap ng trabaho. Baka talagang Season of Rest ako😞) I did my best to get that position but if it’s not God’s will hindi niya talaga ibibigay. I get pressured looking for a job cos’ my mom has a lot of harsh words that really breaks my heart. Asking for her love and support pero wala eh😏😔 puro condemnations lang pero okay lang I always cry it out to God and ask God to have an obedient heart and pray for my mom that in Gods timing she’ll understand everything why am I serving in our church and make disciples and the struggles I’ve been through kasi hindi niya talaga maiintindihan ito ngayon. May times na hindi ko na mapigilan sarili ko nasasagot ko siya. Sobrang sakit na kasi para akala nya hindi ako nasasaktan. God sees my heart, my tears and my situation. Surely God will save the salvation of my family claiming Acts 16:31🙌🔥
I met a lot of new people in CCF where I took 7 weeks session class, build new relationships with AWF Team (A womans forum) and heard their testimonies. I was amazed on How God really healed their wounded hearts. Blessed and grateful that I became part of their journeys too. From every condemnations, persecutions and who invalidate my feelings ,it’s okay. I still pray each one of you, no hard feelings. I forgave you all of you. From being broken who left me hanging without clarity and been cheating on me? I dont know how and when will I forgave you rn. Si Lord na bahala sa’yo. Sana makonsensya ka sa ginawa mo kung totoo man yun talaga hindi ko alam kung kailan kita mapapatawad kapag nalaman ko ang totoo and I still thank God for his life through Him I get to know Christ more and have intimate relationship with God deeper. I just leave it to God and He’ll do the rest in our seasons. I know God faithfully works in our lives individually. Thank you, Lord for this season I experienced. Without You, I really don’t know where should I go or should I really gave up my life but with You and with the help of my spiritual friends and family in church who help me grow in faith and stay stronger and braver in the Lord. Thank you to my spiritual friends who never stop praying, never stop encouraging me to fight the good fight of faith, you were all one of the highlights in my 2019 journey. Thank you for believing that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.♥️Only few people knows my testimony and story behind this year I faced. No need to mention basta kilala niyo na kung sino kayo.☺ I love you fam and friends. I thank God for your lives! Ending the year with a grateful heart. I know God will surprise me and He has greater plans coming for Year 2020. Excited on what God will in store more in my new season, this year! 🙌 God will replace it with new opportunities, more blessings and healing is still on process 🙏🙌 declaring it and claiming it🙏 Thank you, Lord! I want more of You. Thank you for making me stronger everyday and by Your amazing grace here I am stronger, bolder, warrior Daughter of God and wiser 2020! 2020 will be my Year! 2020 will be a refreshing year to start over!!🙏 AMEN!!!
Ending this post with the verses that God spoke to me:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listento you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
-Jeremiah 29:11- 13
“When the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen.” – Isaiah 60:22
“He has made everything beautiful in its time.”- Ecclesiastes 3:11